Feelin' Weird

I can't really describe how I feel right now. The only word I can get around it is...weird. I feel sad since I'm missing the companionship of my buddies back in Cali. I really miss the ability to just call someone up and go out for an afternoon. I think going out with friends is therapeutic for me. Call me strange, but it's true. I'm also stressed because of this whole house hunting situation. I want to find the best house for our needs, in the right price range, in the right area, close to ry's work, with good schools, and near family. Sad to say there isn't a house out there that we've found that fits the bill. I've been driving around the area looking at houses or floorplans every stickin' day and talking about it every night. I just want something to materialize and be done with it. Then again, once we buy a house...that's just the beginning. There's walls to be painted, stuff to install, addresses to change, appliances to buy, the whole shabang. This whole house thing is really getting to me. It's consuming my life right now but I'm tired of it consuming my life. It doesn't help that every person I meet has to ask me the "housing" questions and I have to give the same exact schpiel every single time. I'm tired of talking about it. I just want to crawl in a whole and be left alone. But on the other hand, if I were back in Cali I would want a girls days to happen. Plus, it's just one of those days that I feel frumpy. Have you ever had one of those days? I'm not going to go through a put down session on myself, but I feel like it. So yeah, I basically feel a combination of being sad, stressed, frumpy, and a litte mad. It's not good. All I can say in my head is BLAH! Boo to feeling weird!